I went downtown and the car was first parked in this lot....
and there was this guy sitting on the other side on a ledge
well anyway he was playing guitar and singing, not for
money like most do downtown but more like just for himself...
I could hear him singing it wasn't that loud though because
I wasn't close but his voice, it was amazing....
at first I thought it was his own little song but I listened in
on the lyrics and I deciphered that it was creep by radiohead...
I loved how he sang "so fucking special" with the amount
of raspiness in his voice, it was perfect....
I wanted to go up to him and just sit there,
in awe of his talent but....

....me being my shy self...
it probably wouldn't happen,
although I may have if I were alone....
Left with my own devices, I can do some insane shit,

but anyway, I hope to return and see him there one day

I MET DAVID USHER AGAIN!!!! <3
he's ever so beautiful...
I just want to keep him forever and hear him
sing live on a daily basis...*sigh*
stupid 'moshing' girl... I almost ripped her
fucking nose piercing outta her face!

but aww, today school wasn't half bad ...
we had a lesson and about acceptance and stuff
my dance teacher asked me if I had a personal
experience ....seeing as how I'm not exactly peoples'
definition of 'normal' and I mentioned the fact that
I do get called a freak constantly...and then she said
"I don't know if any of you know vikki outside of dance
but she dresses alternatively"...and she went on to say
that I was a really sweet person, that certain people think
the way I dress is harsh looking when I'm the most unlike
that and she said "people don't think they're very academic
...but she is" lol and then this one girl in my class went
"I think it's rad she dresses the way she does"
it was cute....and afterwards everyone was real nice to me
... it was strange....but different

I'm getting built!!! but my gym teacher said
"we need to get some meat on you.....but I don't know how"
lol how embarrassing...skinnyness isn't something I can help

I am seriously....addicted to Electric Hellfire Club...
Reb has the absolute best taste in music he was so ahead of his
own time...it's a shame he and Vodka had to depart so early on...
but then again if they never went through with the massacre,
how on earth would I know who they were? <3


"Hypochristian, damned to salvation
Lost in a labyrinth of your own creation
You're a liar in waiting
Without any answers
Rotting on the inside from a spiritual cancer

Hypochristian, you're a false witness
Infecting the world with Jehovah's sickness
Chosen by "God", an assembly of liars
If there is a Hell you will burn in its fires

Hypochristian, damned to salvation
Lost in a labyrinth of your own creation
Peddler of poison and moral dysfunction
Preaching your gospel of self-destruction"

LOL I also love the part in this song where the music just stops
and one guy goes, "obviously you take this satan shit
reeeal seriously man...cuz I feel butt-fucked by the devil"

FRICK!! I know just the person who would like this song
....aaaaaaaand he's not online... of course *rolls eyes*
but seriously...he'd love it...he's anti-everything ...
but particularly religion!...
now come onliiiiiiiiiine before I fucking forget >.<

fuck you, you stupid body!!!
I'm gonna stab the hell outta you!
FUUUUUCK...I am so fucking angry
I get all hyped up for sunday and then KABLAMMO,
not feeling well! ...talk about brilliant fucking timing >.<
great, now I feel fucking horrible about everything

he's all too nice though and says he's lookin forward
to next week.. but I wanna hang out nowwwwwwwwwww ..
lol I sound like varuca from the classic willy wonka

anywhos....aliens it's going to be fun!!
I can't wait
...just too bad it won't be tomorrow

I know I shouldn't still be effected by the things people say but sometimes it's just so damn hard to tune out...everyone always gets the wrong impression of me and even though part of me doubts some of my beliefs once in a while, I know I must stay true to them because there's truth in it even though some people don't think it's justified

....I'll continue this later ...